control

The constant fixation of being in total control
Can adversely affect a person, as a whole
Its bitterness penetrates deep within the soul
And can hinder the progress of any goal
I've always been one to wish to dictate
Beyond what I remotely can
Which I believe is to compensate
For anything that hasn't gone according to plan
Sometimes it's difficult to articulate
My desire to govern how things are ran
Sometimes it's painful to contemplate
The root of where this obsession began
Control encircles my entire existence
Control includes an arduous persistence
Control strikes me deep in my core
Regardless of any barriers or distance
Control has me weeping on the floor
Because of my suffering, despite my resistance
My mind and my heart are severely sore
Because of control's authoritative consumption
Because of the mass amounts of obstruction
And all of the destruction
That went in conjunction
With the emotion that triggers a malfunction
Control can manifest in a variety of ways
Sometimes it's compulsion, sometimes it's brazen craze
Control has affected my fundamental attitude
Control has a diverse impact on my mood
Control can deceive me to completely seclude
Control has caused my perception to be skewed
Control has influenced the way that I've viewed
Life itself, myself, particularly my personality
The need for control has a distinct brutality
The power of control has distorted my mentality
The strength of control has decreased my vitality
The effects of control have utterly exhausted me
I'm moving in the direction of my own mortality
And the shining star on the path towards fatality
Is the leverage that control has obtained
And the restriction of being completely chained
By the tight grasp that control has gained
My attempt to be free merely has me drained
And the vivid details of war have been acutely engrained
And center of conflict, which has remained
Completely unable to be contained
Is none other than the force of control
Control invokes me stare and scroll
At of all the artificial posts on my phone
And my brain transitions into a mental war zone
Of utter comparison and a manipulative tone
And that exploitation can be blamed on control alone