Stag Nation

I got memories like a disposable camera
I'm overexposed and running out of stamina
Stuck between the whole like E and A
As I meander, it's just me and a
Sort of directionless state
Been known to take a passive take on fate
I'm driftwood in the eye of the storm
And my wave opposes the currents of the norm
A flag in the window where hope and hopelessness converge
Re-calibrate the search
When I don't even know what I'm looking for
Treasure map on the floor, tattered and torn
At a standstill, still scared to explore
I don't know what there is to be moving towards
Shift focus, I know our ship wasn't bogus
It was beneficial to both of us, I just
Don't wanna view the past through shit colored lens
Nor trap you in my thoughts like life sentences
Please don't mention it, I guess I'm still sensitive
I can't talk 'cause healing is expenseative

And I just wanna move
But I can't seem to move

And I feel like I've been locked out of purgatory
Bruno Mars with the grenade in the conservatory
I came this close to blowing up my progress
In search of a fantasy like Lake Loch Ness
Feet planted deep routed in trauma
Is to exist on this planet to exist in drama
Comma, my thoughts are a run on sentence
And all the love letters is like did we meant this
I stay mixed up the tenses
I been scared to trust any of my senses
I feel so senseless, stagnate, defenseless
Uncomfortable, sitting on these fences
If I can't let you go, would you let me go
It's not that I don't care I just wanna let you know
That I'm sinking in the sand, reaching for your hand
When our love is in the back of a U-haul van, and

I just wanna move
But I can't seem to move