Houseplant

I feel like I've been resurrected as a houseplant
That I wouldn't trust myself with to keep alive
One with browning leaves and wilting stems
It'll take months for anyone to realize I even died
And yea, I've been channeling my inner botanist
As a way to combat life, lonely, monotonous
Studying up, and trying to practice
Though I'm not convinced I could maintain a cactus
And I started collecting succulents
'Cause life sucks, then it sucks you in
Ain't it funny how depression can block our basic needs
As time slowly begins to expire our seeds
And yea, I'll eventually start to see
Why what's not meant for me creates jealousy
As growth remains stagnate, I need to re-pot
Betrayed by my roots, I choke myself out

Can someone please show me
How to take care of me
How to nurture myself
Properly
Can someone please show me
How to take care of me
How to nurture myself
Properly

I thought getting a plant would cure my loneliness
But it just serves as a reminder of unrequited love
And when it dies I'll replace it with another
Though I need to get in the dirt to do the work
Confused feelings are getting in the way of my friendships
I'm no longer certain the roots of my senses
And I thought I found a cure in art
Trying to propagate a piece of my broken heart
So I'm stealing bulbs off the floor of Home Depots
Like we used to do together
And there's not enough light in this apartment
To keep and enjoy a thriving garden
I keep thinking these plants will fill the void
Of everything I'm trying so hard to avoid
I miss feeling love, I miss feeling seen
But my thumb is so far up my ass, it's no longer green

Can someone please show me
How to take care of me
How to nurture myself
Properly
Can someone please show me
How to take care of me
How to nurture myself
Properly