Dear Alcohol (Drill Cover Version)

I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright
And I keep drinkin' till I'm someone I don't recognize
I got wasted
I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright
I keep drinkin' 'til I'm someone I don't recognize
I got wasted

I've got a lot on my mind
Sometimes I wish I could drink and just die
All these problems got me losing my mind
Give me that Henny with Molly on top

I've been criticized, I've been traumatized
My little happiness I just fantasize
I listen to your words even though they're lies
The little time we spent cut me deep inside

Been drowning in my thoughts every day and night
I stare at the ceiling, pray it's gonna be alright
Around people I feel so uncomfortable
Look at the ones I love "I'm not the one for you"

I push the people that love me away from me
I don't know what's this that's inside of me
But one day I will face reality
That'll be the end of me

I'm going insane
I feel like everything I do is in vain
I'm shedding my tears and I'm feeling my pain
I'm praying that one day I will be okay

I stare at the bottle all I feel is doubt
I'm doubting if I will ever make it out
Been looking for a way for me to go round
But we are in life, we'll never make it out (alive)

I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright
And I keep drinking 'til I'm someone I don't recognize
I got wasted
I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright
I keep drinking 'til I'm someone I don't recognize
I got wasted

Lord I've got a question
"Why am I here?"
Is there a reason then tell me
I've tried to leave so many times
I just put the pain in the music now
God help me I hope you listening now

I need help
I'm tryna get out of this hell
To the ones that love me, I'm wishing you well
I'm scared and I know I'm not doing well
But when you ask me I say I'm doing well

It's not my fault, I don't know how to talk
How to explain
How to express myself in front of the people I love

So I keep it hidden
Hope I'm forgiven
I pray that God sees me
I pray He hears me

Misery, agony, help me I am suffering
My life is in jeopardy
Lord save me from this pain I feel

Demons in my heart
Heart is cold as ice
And in my closet, demons locked inside
I act like everything's alright
But deep down I be dying inside
Screaming and crying for help in my head
But I put on a smile
Everyone thinks I'm fine, I'm fine

I'm drunk, I'm drunk, drunk on the pain
Hold me and tell me that I'll be okay
I go outside and I stand in the rain
And pray that it wash all the pains away
Sometimes I wish I can fade away
I wish I can get out of everyone's way
Maybe I'll go out and get lost in space
Then maybe I'll be okay (maybe I'll be okay)

I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright
And I keep drinking 'till I'm someone I don't recognize
I got wasted
I got wasted 'cause I didn't wanna deal with myself tonight
My thoughts get drowned until I feel alright
I keep drinking 'til I'm someone I don't recognize
I got wasted