Sitting on the Shelf

Sometimes I forget not everyone has to be medicated just to function
All I know is that without them you'd run, or is that just my assumption
You swallow one and then you're done but maybe more would me numb
My younger self would see me now and wonder what she's become
The late night hours are my enemy and now I think I see
The monster underneath my bed is actually just me

You say there's a devil on my shoulder but I think mine's in my head
Abusing and using and ruining everything till it's dead
It can't be normal that getting out of bed's a chore
It feels like my brain has its own Cold War
Im floating and I don't know how to ground myself
Maybe ill just stay up here sitting on the shelf

I can't remember the last time, I dare you to tell me the last time
There wasn't mania or sadness please someone save me from the madness
I'm never okay with how things are going
shit I think the bipolar's showing
never been one for make believe
but I gotta believe this isn't real
I look in the mirror don't like what I see
I don't know if ill ever be free
I'm worried I'm running out of time
But I promise you ill be fine

You say there's a devil on my shoulder but I think mine's in my head
Abusing and using and ruining everything till it's dead
It can't be normal that getting out of bed's a chore
It feels like my brain has its own Cold War
Im floating and I don't know how to ground myself
Maybe ill just stay up here sitting on the shelf

I promise you I can shine
If I have you by my side
I promise to tell the truth
Don't wanna lose my youth
The ground looks so far away
Keeping the darkness at bay
You take the calm for granted
But without it you'd be stranded

And

You say there's a devil on my shoulder but I think mine's in my head
Abusing and using and ruining everything till it's dead
It can't be normal that getting out of bed's a chore
It feels like my brain has its own Cold War
Im floating and I don't know how to ground myself
Maybe ill just stay up here sitting on the shelf