15/13

The deeper you love the more it hurts
They usually say it's cuz your love is more than words
But I had the words for you and you shoved them down my throat
I said I love you
You said choke

The deeper you trust the more you learn
They usually say it's cuz trustworthy is hard earned
But you made the promises when you swore you'd never go
I said I need you
You said don't

Do you think it was easy
For me to love
When I've been through this nightmare before
And you knew I wouldn't do it if you called it what it was
Do you think it was easy
For me to trust
When I've been fighting hell for six years
And you broke down every promise and remade them in six months
Oh

The harder you fall the more it hurts
I like to think that's why my pain is beyond words
But I took the sabotage cuz I knew you'd never go
I said I'm sorry
You said no

So what do I make of all that stuff
You swore that through it all you'd always choose the love
But I trusted promises you swore you'd never break
How can I let go
If that was fake

Do you think it was righteous to break your vow
When you've been through that nightmare before
And you swore you'd never leave me even if I'd broken down
Do you think it was honest to say you'd try
Then leave me fighting hell for six weeks while
You rethought every promise without ever telling me

Abused with my love
Abused for my god
Do you think it wasn't "just" of me to wish you were sorry
Cuz it's not enough
To shatter my trust
And claim that my mistakes made the things you did okay

Where is the loyal man I knew
Shouldn't have sworn he'd be the break from solitude
Cuz I gave it all to him
And he didn't even choke
When I said I love you
He said
So