Iridescent

I've been blinded by the colors
Of those who suffer like me
Behind the structure of a smile
You can hide all the debris
Just show them all a sunset
While you feel swallowed by the sea
They're dancing in the glow
While you beg to be set free

When you dip into the darkness
They'll tell you you're a light
But you know you only shine for them
Praised to just keep up the fight
Think today could be the day
You said you won't but you just might
But, you can't let them see you flicker
So you make sure you shine extra bright

"We'd miss you if you left
How could you ever want to leave?
I can't think of life without you
I don't think I'd ever fully grieve"
Suffocated by that guilt
You push your pain inside your sleeve
And just like that
You're back to playing make believe

The thing with being bright
Is that they say your colors paint their sky
They might call you a rainbow
Or say you're fireworks, dancing through July
But you're really iridescent
Different colors seen by every eye
They tell you you're an angel
But they'd never let you fly

After years of carrying those weights
You traded them for wings
No longer hanging by these ropes
You made a guitar out of those strings
When you left, all I could do was cry
I wasn't ready for the sting
But I think about where you must be now
How everyday is flowers blooming in the spring

I dream every day that I could join you
And a few times, I almost did
But I guess it wasn't my time yet
So I send my love up through the wind
I'd rather you be gone and happy
Then be here wanting to rip off your skin
I feel like no one understands that
But, that's just the mindset I've been in