Ten Thousand Days

I look at the screen
The damned clock turns
The evening is blue
My heart is scorched burned
Today they're gonna sing
The song that is older than time
I smile in the candle light
But, all I see is nine

Thousand
One hundred twenty five days
For the twenty fifth year
I'm guide-less through the maze

Everybody says

Hey, happy birthday
You made it back around the sun
But the weight of each day
Stuck in place but expected to run
Most people blow up balloons
And say "let's get together soon"
And then they fade
And I'm stuck closer to ten thousand days

I look at the moon
Already dreading the sun
When all you feel is used
The games have lost all their fun
Today, I'll cry
I'll fill the river then
They tell me to just breathe
Can you count backwards from ten?

Nine, eight, is this fate?
To be seven, sick of this state
Turning fives into fours
They say three, two, one

Please stay

Hey, happy birthday
You made it back around the sun
But the weight of each day
Stuck in place but expected to run
Most people blow up balloons
And say "let's get together soon"
And then they fade
And I'm stuck closer to ten thousand days

I wanna break the clock
All the seconds I'm never first
I'm praised "we're so proud
You made it through all the worst"
But, what they'll never see
Is this day holds so much weight
Cuz the one last year, I spent alone
Why couldn't he have stayed?

Hey, it's my birthday
And I don't wanna spend it alone
Cuz I'm scared, wasn't prepared
For hating the absence of his cologne
Most will toast "many more years"
But my vision's blurry from these tears
They don't understand the fear of ten thousand
More days alone

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