THE ABSTRACT

Taking trips to hell and back
So you know I earned my stripes
Had to give it all to god
Grow my seed until it's ripe
Things changed, people changed, circumstances changed too
Will I ever pay the price for my sins that's past due?
Now I'm overdue for grace
Seems like I had hard
Life was playing crazy d and my emotions hard to guard
Drawing up these plays
Don't let these feelings cause your drive to fadeaway
My heart kept pumping blood
You know I could never stay away
I feel my energy returning to me
Motivation back
Troubles hit me outta nowhere this year like a heart attack
But patience is the key
And faith in god is what I'll never lack
I'll never lay my sword down in this battle
No time to relax
In spite of every obstacle
I chose to look into the right optical and found a couple blessings
Now im eating, never stressing
If you work as hard as benny
Take a page from my playbook
I'm a vet that's in the game
Man to me you just a rook
Never trust outside my circle
To me you niggas is crooks
Gotta watch my back for enemies in spite of my good looks
Writing music and I'm hustling
They say im in my prime
Moving at the pace I wanna go cause all I got is time
Using it to my advantage
Mr. Wordplay with the rhyme
Had to get out of my way
The only way was self healing
Had to subtract all the guilt and just divide myself from shame
Cause I know this life I'm living multiplying by my fame
And to add to that I'm getting better while they stay the same
Big spoon like tbs
Had to get out of this house of payne
Lighting up the green to keep my sane
Even when I'm at my lowest they can't keep up in my lane

Never took a l, took my lesson, then I succeed
Wipe you with the ground, take your girl, have her suck my seed
Used to keep a steady judgement juggling my wants and needs
Had to take care of my plant, grow my stem and cut the weeds
Play on both sides of the court we can run it back
Never fumble bags, came from rags, now my paper stack
See me on top, they think I'm shaq
They just wanna hack
Doing shit behind my back and shocked about how I react
Ask beavis, I get nothing butthead you silly rabbit
Playing tricks is like a child's game
Teaching like an abbot
Never do shit right to keep a tally or a score
Giving people what they want and yet they asking me for more
Man my last girl was spoiled so I had to throw that bitch out
New talent made a good first impression to the perfect scout
Used to ask myself how come the lord give me the hardest route
But now im realizing that I chose the tallest waterspout

I look around, I can see the bigger picture
Lemme prophesy these verses like it came out of the scripture
Playing at my best when knowing that my back against the wall
Why we tryna walk and run before we learning how to crawl
Used to worry bout the way I look
But now I'm just an open book
You reach and then I teach
I'll have you on the ground confused and shook
They never stepping up to me
My actions are left up to me
Idols become rivals
But before that they look up to me
I always finish first
You know alpha never finish last
Moving on and upward
No regretting shit that's in the past
Saca la basura, speaking spanish
Time to take the trash out
Pressure from pops, self-inflicted
Made me wanna pass out
Pointing fingers, to me that's a tendency of a beginner
How the hell you cheat the game
And think that you'll become a winner?
I'm sinner sharing values with a nigga who a saint
Molding morals
Ain't no fiction coming with this life I paint
Never tripping bout these blessings that my god is giving to me
If you ask me how I'm doing
I might say he living through me
Watch ya head, cause the evil hate it when you first
Always in third person, who can I trust to put me first?
Looking at the way I look at life
It's like a never ending race
The war is won with pace
And I'm chasing ghost
Poppa looking at me like I'm a disgrace
And if thats the case
I guess he found another way to diss grace