At Least a Place to Lie

One use
Disposable I feel I've been past expiration
Only relying on validation
Can anything repurpose me into another being?
I feel swallowed-up into these pitfalls
I see my half-life tick until my feelings dull

Apathy is my home away from home
It's in my sinew, it's in my bones
Can I break out of these binds that tie
Themselves tighter with time
Am I able to find any way to feel fine
Without always being left behind?

Will I compost into something new
Can I hold-on long enough to breakthrough?
To breakthrough

Do I care too much?
Do I feel too deep?
Is empathy the rope around my neck dragging me?

Am I enough, or just enough to let you down?

The air I breathe in fails to reach
My web of arteries deep beneath
Apathy keeps me company
But also makes me feel alone
I layer coats over my skin
So the numbness will sink in
I can't hide inside myself
I can't process all the ways I've felt

Am I fucked up?
Can I move on?
Am I scarred to the point I'm too far gone?
Am I scared to the point I can't rely
Am I content to be passed by
Will I be at peace when I die

When I die

It settles deep until it saturates
Emotions I cannot validate
Contaminate my mind
And get worse over time

I don't know how to not live in pain
Incarcerated in my own brain
I can't find the words to say
So I put them on display
But I can't accept what that portrays

I can't find a way to make myself feel safe
Living life like I can't even keep my own pace
So I rush ahead in hopes that I can find
A shortcut or at least a place to lie
At least a place to lie
At least a place to lie
Will I be at peace when I decide to die?



Credits
Writer(s): Aurie Le, Joshua Engle, Ricky Gonzalez, Timmy Winters, Tyler Krepps
Lyrics powered by www.musixmatch.com

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