Wasted Time

You gave me feelings I ain't have
I swear I tried to double down
It's like my efforts don't matter
Cause I can't keep you around
Hmph
You know you special
You deserve it, tried to give you a crown
My heart was lost, we wasn't searching
Can't believe it was found
But I guess I ain't the one that's gone be holding you down
But I guess I ain't the one
It can't be me, I got too much trauma that live on my soul
I know you hurting too
Can see when all them triggers exposed
I'm giving half, you giving half, and it ain't making us whole
Know when we fuck, we making love, it's just a way to console
When we wake up, can't lose my focus, back to my selfish goals
Cause all that pain and all that struggle
Yeah it took such a toll
It had me contemplating life, and then I took some control
Ever since I owe it to myself to make sure I'm on
I know that ima be the realist one that you ever known
Cause even through your childish tantrums never left you alone
When things got Rocky, kept on fighting I'm Sylvester Stallone
When things got Rocky, kept on fighting I'm Sylvester Stallone

Sometimes I'm stuck in how I'm feeling
I was hurting you was healing
You my medicine
That's why this got me sick, you penicillin
I was willing and committing
You was chilling, hiding feelings
No comparison, so how we find the end at the beginning
No comparison, so how we find the end at the beginning
You my medicine
That's why this got me sick, you penicillin

I lived a life of empathy
And now they feel me more than ever
Confident in my rhymes
I'm just here to tell a story, did it so many times
Without the pain and all the struggle, couldn't write all these lines
Through the pen I found a light, it's only right that I shine
I still got trauma on my soul, so don't be showing me signs
Of anything that I been through, I still be hurting sometimes
That's how I know that I ain't ready
For the things that we trying
Ever since I got some sense I ain't been messing with dimes
I still remember all the things they did to mess with my mind
So now I'm focused on my future built myself by design
Through meditation I been facing all that hurt I been hiding
It's still a battle I been fighting all these thoughts that's inside
I couldn't speak, but I could feel it
I was trapped like a mime
It's still a battle I been fighting all these thoughts that's inside
I couldn't speak, but I could feel it
I was trapped like a mime
I finally found a voice, they feel me, like I'm speaking in Braille
That's cause my flow premium gas
Got em calling me Shell
I ain't know that I was great
I had to come out my shell
So before we get too close, I got to bid a farewell
I know my worth, and I can't settle for them tickets you sell
I subbed you in, you gave me nothing
That's a buck, Tony Snell
You had me rolling in the deep
I kind of feel like Adele
I told her ain't no sure thing
I ain't coming Miguel

Sometimes I'm stuck in how I'm feeling
I was hurting you was healing,
You my medicine
That's why this got me sick, you penicillin
I was willing and committing
You was chilling, hiding feelings
No comparison, so how we find the end at the beginning
No comparison, so how we find the end at the beginning
You my medicine
That's why this got me sick, you penicillin