My Love

My love

Where are you?
Do you feel the space stored tightly between us?
Do you feel the wind rise up and shake your bones?
I am cold
Filled with thirst
You should not be the concrete to my water
You are clay and you absorb me till only you is left

I fear I am being pulled away from you, my love
I cannot give you everything
I want to say I love you
And mean it as 'I'll never leave you'
But I do not know that to be true and it aches
Like there are knives grazing my lungs

Can you hear me, my love?
I cannot breathe
I cannot breathe in you
I feel your weight on my chest
In my throat solid like cement
You are too heavy for me to take

I do not want you to leave, my love
But I am here writing writing writing
Our eulogy into existence and the weight cripples my fingers
Makes war with the truth rattling in my skull

I see the end
Final like fields of our concrete tombstone
Fear makes putty from my bones

I am so tired, my love
I cannot let you go

I am sorry my love, but I have to go