What Do I Know

But what do I know I'm a person like the rest of 'em (echoes)
Officially adult but I still feel young
To clarify, I meant in my head, not my bones
Instead of all the friends I feel happy alone
Circling thoughts and anxiety prone
So afraid of the thoughts in my brain
Chasin perfection but I chased it in vain
What did it leave me with?
A tangle of shame
Shakin in a corner too afraid to engage
Frozen in the fear that I could never be enough
Broken in tears
Afraid of what I could become
We're easier to mold than we'd like to admit
Been humbled a lot
What I know isn't shit
You can have the right intention to crimes you commit
Then you notice you don't recognize the person you've been
That's how I became cold, lost touch and forgot
How to have a real connection with the friends that I've lost
Defeated in the fear I gave up on the cause
Only safe options, waves hi's and nods
The rest just feels like a test I could fail
Call me strong, times I feel quite frail
Midlife crisis for a decade, it kills
They tell me not to think about death, but I will
I think it's a requisite to living fulfilled
What would it even mean with forever to build?
But what do I know?
I'm a person like the rest of 'em
Deeper and more simple than imagination gets to go
Masterful portraits from mistaken brushstrokes
Hero and the villain just a traveler on the road
Searching for the wonder youth beholds
Workin towards a break in the mould
I'm afraid of making music cuz I know the effects
Don't wanna teach from my wounds, even if it's indirect
No one's got all the answers with the best of intent
The influence could be different from the one that you meant
Life is full of surprises
Don't it always surprise you?
Many lessons, you're alive you got the invite too
Will we take 'em?
The chances we'd like to?
The answers are in someone else's hands
Psyche! You!
I'm gunshy, it don't take a lot, a small pop
And I'm runnin to the station to escape to the spot
Dissociation takin every train of thought
And I forgot where I'm supposed to get off
Disappear inside myself for a while and then
Someone shows me something human and I surface again
Think it's funny how we're all just playin pretend
Our convictions repetitions of what someone else said
We were once so young
Naive and full of dreams
Makin plans makin music and buildin communities
Folks are bound to do it, we age and lose sight
Lost touch, inspiration and we gave up the fight
Graves filled with friends, dreams and timelines
Work, bills, and kids
No time to write rhymes
They tell me all the time
But life just flies by
Blink and you've spent years on the sidelines
Told myself I wanna live, not goin to funerals
But it's usually the temporary things are beautiful
Takes one again no preparation
Growing old enough to really start losing your friends
Lose them in life to the numbing effects
Of all the letdowns, failures, and scars we collect
Think you got tomorrow to give it the mend
Then you lose them again when they dead
Got me shuttin down
Don't know how to let them in
So afraid of the pain
It's like connection's a sin
Start to think em naive
All my visions and plans
Makin sure that I'm never caught slippin again
We bury versions of ourselves with our dead
At the cemetery we visit a time when
Someone gave us a torch
Lit a fire within
We don't cherish our friends til they're dead
While they're still alive
We just take them for granted
The chemicals shift
Everyone scatters
Then we beg each other to remember what matters
Then it's back to normal life
Another heart shattered
I ain't judging
It ain't easy with too much on the platter
It's a complicated problem
And there's rarely an answer
But what do I know?
I'm a person like the rest of 'em
Deeper and more simple than imagination gets to go
Masterful portraits from mistaken brushstrokes
Hero and the villain just a traveler in the road
But what do I know?
But what do I know?
But what do I know?
But what do I know?
Just a traveler on the road
Just a traveler on the road
But what do I know?
But what do I know?
But what do I know?