Just Here

We're alive, we're all just here
All our might just to climb
Up a crumbling hill
I'm not a flexer
I've been tryna find the measure
Of my worth in this
Ever changing world of pain and pleasure
I don't give myself credit
For the efforts
Or the skills that I develop
Or the places that I'm headed
Yeah I probably deserve it
But I ain't perfect
And I wonder sometimes
If I'm the person that's worth it
Sometimes I feel
Like I'm just scratching the surface
Like the immersion in this work
Is slowly working towards a purpose
I got a message in my soul
But I can't hear it
Through intrusive thoughts
Patterns
Obligations and lyrics
The mystics say to just sit
With the spirit and listen
Go within
It's really simple
Just take a seated position
Been tryna find a single second
Beckon in the ebb and flow
Reckon the lessons
Figure where I need to go
But I can't sort through the mess
That's in my head
Or what I see outside myself
When I put the rest
To the test
We're alive, we're all just here
All our might just to climb
Up a crumbling hill
Where is the meaning we've been trying to uncover?
Is there really a lesson?
Are we just learning to suffer?
Tired of tryna prove
That I've been doin my best
I give my everything
It never seems
To have an effect
This system's bent on prevention
Of my ascension
To betterment
They got weapons
To defend me
In my mental endeavors
But they refuse
Then accuse me of
Not trying at all
Take my tools
To improve
Solidifying my fall
Sometimes I feel attempts
At making headway are fruitless
Like I try so fuckin hard
But the world is ruthless
And I wanna keep on fightin
Just in case I could win
But every time
I think I'm gettin there
I'm set back again
Someone told me that
I don't need
To release every song
As if my dumpster
Doesn't overflow
With bits of my heart
Like I've been walkin around
Some kinda chip
On my shoulder
Like my insecurity
Ain't heavy as a boulder
I pick myself to pieces
For this temporary season
And for what?
Everybody here is leavin'
We're alive, we're all just here
All our might just to climb
Up a crumbling hill
Where is the meaning we've been trying to uncover?
Is there really a lesson?
Are we just learning to suffer?
We're alive, we're all just here
All our might just to climb
Up a crumbling hill
Where is the meaning we've been trying to uncover?
Is there really a lesson?
Are we just learning to suffer?