Rot Girl Winter Pts 1 And 2

I'm skipping dinner
When this shit gonna kick in?
Yeah the lines get bigger
Least I feel myself getting thinner
You my sinner
Make me iller
You my killer
Pull the trigger
Got me listening to SZA
It's a rot girl winter

Shit I run out again
I just wanna forget
Please let me rest
Then let me get dressed for a second
Then dive back in my regrets
Am I doing too much?
That's why I do better numb
Are you dumb are you dumb
Yeah I am duh
Now shut the fuck up
Wrap me up wrap me up
Cuz you know I don't like being naked
Don't like my body don't like my scars
I don't like my past is that basic?
Medicate it when the shame hit
Mutilating it when I shave it
Hate myself enough to let you penetrate
But its kinda nice when I'm wasted

I'm skipping dinner
When this shit gonna kick in?
Yeah the lines get bigger
Least I feel myself getting thinner
You my sinner
Make me iller
You my killer
Pull the trigger
Got me listening to SZA
It's a rot girl winter

I didn't come here for your input
I just come here cuz the dick good
On the run from my past mistakes
And then I'll make some more so I got
New shit to think about
New shit to drink about
Truth is I'm running out of excuses not to fucking (gasp) myself
Music? I guess thats one
Family? Maybe not
Friends who'd be better without me to stress about
RIP Chynna the blueprint
Hope MPTG don't do it
I wish I was stupid cuz thinking is useless
When all of my thinking intrusive
Mugs been piling up
And my sheets ain't been clean in months
Should I eat should I sleep nah I need to pay rent
Nah forget it just set me a bump
Serotonin been slipping
Psychosis is winning
How can I get sober when winter this cold
Nah I don't wanna die but the spiralling different
Serotonin been missing
Get the rope and the scissors
All my broken bitches put ur wrists up it's a rot girl winter

If I died tonight then no one would know the real me
(And I'm too narcissistic for that)
I'd rather die than let anyone know the real me
(Cuz I'm too narcissistic for that)
Who to be
Where to sleep
Concrete floors and empty sleeves
C'est la vie
Shame and grief
Come this far I'm in too deep
Just make me numb
Swear I'm having fun
Make me stupid dumb and drunk
And pray this time I don't wake up
Very superficial so I get over things quicker
Convinced that you the issue just to give myself excuses
Maybe i'd have turned out better if u were still with us
I don't know i don't know i guess I've just been thinking



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Writer(s): Enxi Erskine-chang
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