what were you thinking?

I just moved and the house is empty
I'm in the capital now
What do you have against me
Nothing you say will shake me
And I'm just wondering how
When all i got is a mirror
My picture's not getting clearer
Yeah all i got is a mirror
And things just keep getting weirder
I'm not afraid i'm just anxious
Me let it go? i'm not gracious
My grudges really too spacious
I guess i'm bitter: campari
Too late to say you are sorry

Uhh
What were you thinking
Uhh
What were you thinking
Uhh
If only i could know what you were thinking
Yeah
Go

It's been too long it dont matter
Most days you dont cross my matter
I spent so long casting blame
I now know it was in vain
And i think back to the summer
How long i spent on a plane
How many new cars i bought
And how this L made me insane
I have to wonder, how many really fucking believed?
Cause when i told her
I swear her eyes glowed with deceit
I'll take the passenger seat
I'll let you drive the porsche
Just say you won't leave
Just say you won't leave

Thats what i should have said
Whatever

I fantasise about them calling my name
I had to cut you off and get back in my lane
I rap to prove you wrong
Let me reiterate
I spent so long casting blame
And this don't feel like a game
I have to tell you again
I have to tell you again
You never was my friend
You tell me it isn't true
But i know what i did
I know what you did too
It's been too long i forget you
So many things on the to do
Sometimes i just don't do
Uhh
It's been too long i forget too
Beats playing over bluetooth
No writing, i'm stuck still
No tracks or no albums still
How long has it been, i feel lost
I feel lost
Huh

I knew i could lose you
The first moment i got you
I knew i would lose you
The first moment i had you
Uhh
What do you have to say now
What do you have to do
'cause personally i've done nothing
All day long so fuck you
I do not give a shit
Or maybe i just like thinking
That im some sort of unphased motherfucker barely even blinking
I have to shield myself
I have to forget you
'cause who's to say you won't leave
When i begin to let you
Who's to say you won't leave
Just like they all did
I'm drinking day old gin
Just so i can open up
And when i do
I fuck it all up
I got it written
More times than i could read it
I know i'd never quit it
But really i wish i did
I am stuck tonight
Just like any other night
For the longest time
I wish i had the rhyme
That i needed
Whenever that it was needed
I was just too conceited to see it
I wasn't needed
And nor was i wanted
Ignore you while you were talking
Just hear
What i wanted to hear
Was it ever sincere
"i don't know why im here"
The biggest lie i told
Because i knew; "i am cold"
Another lie, "you're too bold"
And that's all i'll ever be
And that's all i ever was
And thats all you'll ever see

I got further by writing i ever did by talking
Better believe i'm not stopping
Better believe i am hoping
Just for a moment to come back
To get that old rush back
To see you just run past me
For one last time

Huhh
What were you thinking that last time
What did you think of me last time
Uhh
What were you thinking
Uhh
What were you thinking
Uhh
If only i could know what you were thinking
Uhh
What were you thinking
Uhh
What were you thinking
Uhh
If only i could know what you were thinking
Uhh
Thinking
Uhh
What were you thinking
Uhh
If only i could know what you were thinking