Come Over?

Will you come over at 10 or
Will you flake on me again?

Cancelled my plans just for a chance
To explore your foreign land

And I built my house with twigs and leaves
You could blow right down and set me free
But I guess I'm just too naïve

So I theorize in my lonely bed
Twist your words that weren't said
Coming up with reasons why you'd hate someone you haven't met

I spin the web in my head of lies
All I do's self-criticize
One step from believin' that you'd burn my house while I'm inside

And I'll never know why
I behave this way
So why do I
Keep driving down this lane
Am I insane

Heavy handed
Thought we landed
When you said that you'd be mine

Stayed up waiting
Anticipating
As if you lost track of time

And I know it doesn't make me unwanted
And I know I can't mistake this for lovin' but
It still hurts me all the same

So I theorize in my lonely bed
Twist your words that weren't said
Coming up with reasons why you'd hate someone you haven't met

I spin the web in my head of lies
All I do's self-criticize
One step from believin' that you'd burn my house while I'm inside

And I'll never know why
I behave this way
So why do I
Keep driving down this lane
Am I insane

Maybe it's insanity
Always think it will end differently
I scroll in circles on my phone
Waiting for you to reach out to me

But you don't
And you won't
Maybe if it were a week ago
When you were feeling down and all alone

But you don't, now
And you won't, now
So I wrote down
So you know how

It feels
To be insane
To be haunted by someone you've never met
You can't get out of your brain
So ashamed
Do you think people stop existing just as soon as
They are out of your frame
Immaturity
To have the object permanence of a child
What more can I say?

Will you come over at 10 or will you flake on me again
(Spoiler alert they will)