Deface Me

Ten o' clock in the morning
And I made you late for church
Less than three hours of sleep, you're frustrated
And I only made it worse
But still, I couldn't help but laugh as you sprang onto the floor
Desperately fixing up your hair in the mirror on your door
And I couldn't help but think
You were so pretty even though you just woke up
And I know you told me not to write this in a song
But that was your first mistake and you knew it all along
That I couldn't hold back when the lyrics just appeared inside my head

So don't respect me, just deface me
I'm addicted to your body
I'm self indulgent and lonely just like you

What you want and what you wish for couldn't be more different things
You talk like I'm a fragile angel barely flying with the brittlest of wings
You're careful and controlled, slowing me down with endless warnings
You pray endlessly to God, but I'm your devil come the morning
If that's all that I can be, I'm still happy just to lay here in your arms

So don't respect me, just deface me
I'm addicted to your body
I'm self indulgent and lonely just like you

Trust me, I've been trying long enough to know
That Jesus never gave me any kind of feeling of control
And I'm sorry that it had to come out that way
But it's been gnawing at my head since far before today
And if a holy apology is all that I can be
I guess it's better than sleeping alone
You're plagued with this feeling of shame every time you say my name
Left your feelings at the door, but to me it's all the same
Weakest moments all aligned, dead at just the perfect times
Now your clothes are on the floor and I'm wishing you were mine
I guess it was bad timing all along
I get let down and you get a song
But to be painfully honest, it's not about you
I'm just tired of being alone

If I can't kiss away your tears
If you move on, I'll be right here
I'll be right here