Identity

Why when I look inside
I don't like what I see
Attention, obsession, correction, perfection
Why when I look inside
I see the enemy
(I see the enemy)

See I see it all but at the same time I'm blind
I try to fight the fall I guess the fall is in my mind
Am a Saul or am I Paul I don't know who am I?
I think I see it all maybe all I'm seeing is a lie
Light was off in my room with the last record
But as a Christian how can I leave the past severed
Alot has happened in my room that nobody sees
But that's Information that I know nobody needs
There's alotta people looking for a place
Common phrase is they looking for there space
They don't stop and face it they drop their faces
Sometimes all we need God to embrace us
Where's the hope in a life without saving grace
Or hope in a wife that wont look you in the face
I know there's alotta people looking for an identity
I just pray they find it in the God with an uppercase

I feel like to find you I gotta find myself first
But its visa - versa you may wanna think on that
We were born into a curse look around you that's a fact
I'm just trinna find the words to explain exactly that
Have faith in the sadness and in the hardship
Know who you are at all times so you never harden
Don't listen to the devil and never make a bargain
You'll just make a hole that you'll one day fall in

Why when I look inside
I don't like what I see
Attention, obsession, correction, perfection
Why when I look inside
I see the enemy
(I see the enemy)

Never call out less you name the name
Demons reply as if they have license
Different voices with different thoughts
This is one of many kinds of identity crisis
I question what defines what a price is
Its like I am hostage to a member of ISIS
A bevy of doctrines giving me their bias
And the search for light has left me lifeless

I'm talking bout things you don't ever see
Thinking bout the things I may never be
I been Prisoner of the mind since I was 17
Will I be looking for the hope until I'm 70
I can hear the echoes of my old cell mates
Pain fear sorrow and of course my self hate
Calling from the darkness I can hear the voices
It has taken me years to begin to voice this
My life was pointless from all my life choices
Asking all my life what the heck the point is
God i put my trust you with a spark of faith
I pray you save me from my cell if I start to faint
But God has called me this is my purpose
I feel inadequate and when I write I'm nervous
But I will never forsake all of my Gods promises
After all faith and hope really are synonymous

Lately I been thinking on my identity
God show me who I am and who I am meant to be
Who I know I am and who I pretend to be
Who I show I am and who I pretend to see
God I know I'm suppose to have faith in you
But trusting anyone or anything is something I hate to do
I'm not saying I hate you
I'm saying it ain't easy for me
But I will never stop pursuing you or your glory

Why when I look inside
I don't like what I see
Attention, obsession, correction, perfection
Why when I look inside
I see the enemy
(I see the enemy)

My enemy seem to be
I don't know how to fight it
Where I place my Identity
Will let me down in time

If you could see the pain
That's hidden within this asylum
Perhaps you'd turn and run my love
And leave me on this island
Where do I go?
What do I know?
How do I start?
This broken heart is scarred



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Writer(s): Markus Riggs
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