My Problem

Sitting in my car, I began to write
I wrote down what I'm gonna say cause I
Was broken over how I talk in life
I hope you listen to what I bring to light
I said things that I'm not proud of
I yelled things that I now look down on
I am verbally cruel in the name of honesty
I cry at night knowing what it cost me
The voices come out, they come out in these moments
They come out cause I fear not only that I'll die
But die a lonely death cause no will be near
Loneliness is what I fear almost all the time

I control cause I have a vision in my head
Anything less is failure but instead
Of saying these things all I do is argue
All I do is start to bicker I know it's a dark view
The problem is bigger but your gonna start to
Understand it all yeah tell me are you?
Wait never mind I forgot I'm writing
Feels like a conversation in a way I am
I'm talking to you but rapping to the fans
Or a fan that maybe just relates
I pray what I'm saying will help somebody
Godly is my goal I'm not trinna be embraced

The pain of your past will never cease
I know pain wont last but how do we live in peace?
In the end all I ask is I don't only bleed
But serve a greater purpose to those in need
I am small and weary but with you I'm mighty
Please grant me the faith keep on trying
In the end all I ask is I don't only bleed
But serve a greater purpose to those in need

I've fallen many times told many lies
I pray forgiveness for lives I ruined in my time
I have hurt many people I feel like I am evil
I have hurt so many people so many people
I am small and weary but with you I'm mighty
Please grant me the faith keep on trying
If I could look at myself I would yell out stop him!
Verbal abusive is my biggest problem

I'm not here to be famous or live a life that's perfect
I'm here because my aim is to live a life that's worth it
My claim is ima a Christian who strives toward purpose
And every place I fail is a place to learn this
I'm more harsher with my words than I know I oughta be
I tear down people with my thoughts and my honesty
It's a problem of the heart yeah I know I probably
Need to quit acting like I'm a potter and try to be the pottery
In the end all I pray is that I gave to my faith in you
Talking about it is easy but living it is something I hate to do
God your son is what I need i think a change is due
I surrender to the savior calling out "make me new"
I've been a hypocrite in the past i pray this is not the case
I do it more than I think I pray will God break me with conviction
I wanna build people up I am not perfect I will not pretend
God I pray you change my heart so the problem will end

The pain of my past will never cease
I know pain wont last but how do i live in peace?
In the end all I ask is I don't only bleed
But serve a greater purpose to those in need
I am small and weary but with you I'm mighty
Please grant me the faith keep on trying
In the end all I ask is I don't only bleed
But serve a greater purpose to those in need

I've fallen many times told many lies
I pray forgiveness for lives I ruined in my time
I have hurt many people I feel like I am evil
I have hurt so many people so many people
I am small and weary but with you I'm mighty
Please grant me the faith keep on trying
If I could look at myself I would yell out stop him!
By far verbal abusive is my biggest problem