Me And My Headphones

I wish I had somebody to tell me I was enough
I wish I had somebody to tell me life is rough
I wish I had somebody to talk to when I wanted to see my own blood
I've been looking for answers I can't find
Life is a mountain I'm too afraid to climb
Everybody tells me I'm a great guy
I just tell them I think that's a great lie
I cut myself because the pain reminds me I'm alive
If you think I hate myself for no reason you clearly don't know me
There's a bunch of them that you just don't see
I pretend to be a good person but I know that I won't be
My mind is a warzone and I'll never make it out
Constanly being gunned down by my doubts
It's gotten to the point where I don't even know what I'm talking about
I wish I was happy and I bet your happy laughing at me
I've been crying in the shower
Who am I to convince myself that I have the power
To help people get through there darkest hour
While I'm shaking in the corner like a coward
Look away from the medication I never use
I hate to watch tv cause all I receive is bad news

I'm not tired but I just want to sleep
My life is suffocating I'd rather live in my dreams
The knife I put in my skin is getting to deep
This never would have happened if I had somebody to see
That I'm alone and need someone to love me
I have no motivation in the day
And I can't take advice everything has to be done my way
But I'm not confident in anything I ever gain
I can't make it through the pain
You can't tell me nobody feels the same
I swear to god there has to be somebody who relates to what I say
How can I be a positive influence when I have none
I'm lucky I haven't shot myself with a gun
I think about everything that I've done
And I can't be proud of an achievement not even one
I remember when I thought rap was fun
Now I use it to run far away from the bad place
I created in my head space
I'm all on my own
No one wants to pick up the phone
I'm trapped in my zone
So as I walk down the streets completely alone
All I need is me and my headphones