A To B

It's good of you to make the space
I had to see you face to face
How long is it since last we met?
We talked about the alphabet
I really don't remember much
I know you said to keep in touch
And that it can't be justified
How foolishly I've let that slide
And now I don't know what to say
Except, it's never gone away
It's even harder now for me
To find the way from A to B

I still have my recurring dream
The constantly returning theme
There's somewhere that I have to go
I never ever make it, though
The images are crystal clear
The sun is bright. The atmosphere
Is unpolluted, fresh and clean
And dazzling like I've never seen
It's somewhere that I recognise
But now, accusing night-world eyes
Are always there; cajoling me
To find the way from A to B

It may well be a city scene
Most likely somewhere I have been
Or possibly a country town
I've never tried to pin it down
But always I am left marooned
A state to which I'm now attuned!
And somehow have to choose a track
That finally will bring me back
But back to whom, and back from where?
And every time it's always there
This overriding urgency
To find my way from A to B

They're not disturbing, I must say
Or nightmarish in any way
But tiring? – yes, I'm sure that's right
To me they take up half the night!
And always are as clear as day
The moment they are under way
I'm running down the steepest road
In one specific episode
I waded through a flooding stream
It didn't help me in the dream
'Cause even then, I wasn't free
To find my way from A to B

I don't know why I tell you this
It's nothing you would ever miss
When you've forgotten every word
That I have said or you have heard
You probably will say at best
I'm only one like all the rest
And possibly this is at most
A bid to exorcise a ghost
But thanks for listening all the same
It's now become a waiting game
I'm searching all the time, you see
To find a way from A to B