So Alone

So alone, so alone
Why am I so comfortable, alone?
Why am I so comfortable, alone?

Hatch, hatch, queen of satan's giving birth' to more demons
It's hibernating season, for my happiness to rest, after it bleeds, and
Dispatches' quick in an ambulance, to get tested
Another episode' on deck, as I get checked' to see, how my aggression
Caused my depression' to explode, to sky-high
No friends, family, or even God' is on my side
I feel, I feel' like no one knows, how I feel
Can't seem to chill, even I take prescription pills
Still I'm a nervous wreck, like clowns at a circus' to set
A couple of jokes' on the set, to be embarrassed, upset
And they just get laughed at
Damaged, traumatized' from my past, that destroyed me
Years later, I'm thinking' that I moved passed that
But I'm right back, where I started, like I only took 2 steps back
My head is hollow, but no screws have come loose yet, jack
If I'm hallucinating, doing jumping jacks
Then my brain is stuck' on stupid, in society's dumb, facts
Smart enough to keep my guard up, from all the snakes
But I feel like everyone's that way, and I end up' pushing them away
Too much rage' in the cage 'of my system, I hate
When I feel like bombs, on horizon, set to fucking detonate, Yeah
Life is great, now I'm lying to myself
What a mistake, that I portray, that has me dying in myself, hey
I cry for help, but no one hears me in this dome
Solo, I'm on my own, and I feel so alone

Why am I so comfortable, alone?
Why am I so comfortable, alone?
I'm riding home

Ugh, been feeling lazy' from the way that I do things
My mind is feeling cloudy, while I change' with the mood swings
Rain is pouring down on me, while no one's around
Feel like a king' that's on the top, then I feel like wings' that got shot down, pow
From low to loud, to feeling so proud
Of something simple, like allowing myself' to leave the house
But who cares?, and who's there?
No one J, yo I swear, people suck, just like this life, that will never be fair
Oh yeah' I know, that's the reason why I chose to be cold
Protect my heart, that got exposed, from the villains and hoes, so let it snow
But I'm bringing the fire, to burn 'em down
Next in line, to turn vicious, like it's about to be my turn' to frown
Heard the sounds' from the people, calling me a bum
A weird chump, with emotions, that's all' by his lonesome, with no one
Outcast' is what I appear as
I'm cursed' to be around the folks, the way, they disappear fast
My fears clash, with my own paranoia
Can't stop the drugs' from landing in me, even if it's clear, that I'm a stoner
Or if the dosages keep my heart from beating, (G)
Demons cheating me, results will prove' that nothing's beating me
I hop on beats, when I feel depression' approaching
Nobody wants to love me, whenever my heart's open
So I'll keep it closed then, from now, till I'm gone
Solo, I'm on my own, and I feel so alone

Why am I so comfortable, alone?
Why am I so comfortable, alone?
I'm riding home

I feel so alone
I feel so alone, so alone
I feel so alone, alone
Feel so alone, so alone

I feel so alone, ohh, ohh
I feel so alone
Oh, oh, I feel so alone, ohh, ohh
I feel so alone, I feel so alone