Raining In My Head

My manic state is full of hate, double time's the rage
Impatient thinking, cannot wait on when it's time to break
Time to face the evil maniacs' that party, and don't stop
Till I refuse to sleep, and stay up, angry, and what not
Blood's clogged, stuck on getting results 'of my heart rate
The doctors said I'm due' for an operation, fore my parts break
The brain cells, inside my head, are tangled up
The third side to my story, is making love' in the triangle's butt
Till it rains, no more pain to face again, after clouds pass
My heart is the volcano, set to blow, with a loud blast
My body's soaking wet, in sweat, from just having sex
With the anxiety, while hypnotized to sleep with it, next
Woke up, feeling more suicidal than depressed' in a song
My personality' and life don't get along, along with other things
My mood swings are swinging my feelings
Here comes the storm, the pain, the dread, raining in my head

It's raining' inside my head
But it's fine, cause I need it on me

It's raining' inside my head
But it's fine, cause I need it on me

Deranged, twisted, unpredictable, sick in the head
What a way to describe my image, see how quick 'I get stressed
Living in society' with a mental illness's a mess
Cause you get judged, criticized, called a wicked reject
Who's depressed, stressed, a wreck, man the list of names goes on
But they'll be the same ones that scream 'Rest In Peace, when your gone
You phonies are the reason' why I love to be alone
And if push comes to shove, I'll push away, until I'm on my own
Cause I've been a loner' with trauma, like I was sent through
A vision, where people don't understand what I went through
The drama, family issues, being bullied constantly
Without the music, I'd be buried in the dirt, cause honestly
It lights a flame' inside of me, to speak out thoughts' that bother me
Lyrics building' constantly, I got talents as a prodigy, an MC
No more apologies, from the man 'I become
I'll be more better than the man' that was numb, it's raining in my head

It's raining' inside my head
But it's fine, cause I need it on me

It's raining' inside my head
But it's fine, cause I need it on me

I love the rain, it gives me energy, helps when I'm depressed
I'm like the black sheep' from the white ones, cause I'm not like the rest
I love to isolate, or disappear, when I feel overwhelmed
Back to my comfort zone' to vent, like a turtle in his shell, to tell
Himself, that he don't need a soul' to be around him
Death is unpredictable, but I feel it coming now, then
Voices be telling me' to just be prepared
After I'm gone, all of a sudden, people magically appear?
It's funny, cause no one cared' to check on me, when I was breathing
Them same motherfuckers can go to hell, cause I don't need them
Don't give a fuck' if I'm the cause, or the reason
That people hate my guts, I'll be the most hated man' through every season
The realest gets called a phony, because they're real
And the fakest get praised, this generation man, what is the deal?
They rather kill us' than sustain us, Instead
I'd rather die' than live in painful dread, it's raining in my head

It's raining' inside my head
But it's fine, cause I need it on me

It's raining' inside my head
But it's fine, cause I need it on me