Magical Movie Moment I

The first time I saw you was on stage
Vibrant and beautiful and cool
With a smile that would light up a room
Everyone's favorite girl
Stuck in a mad world

And who wouldn't fall in love
With someone like you
With the voice and the eyes and the face
But I never thought I'd join the craze

'Cause I'll be honest
I know that even at my peak
I always knew you were out of my league
You're still a goddess and I'm
Well, I'm this guy
Here, on the ground
Feet planted pretty solid
The data is pretty sound

And so I didn't think of you much for years
But then you played a concert and after a couple beers
We shared a magical movie moment
And I tried to freeze it and hold it

And it felt like
The taste of you was on the tip of my tongue
(Though I don't know it)
Like a thought, I almost had
Like a question, I almost knew the answer to

But I guess you were always a performer
To me
But it wasn't you, you see
I guess to me you never really left that stage
And I'm at that age
Where I have to admit to myself
That sometimes I'm still not fully aware
That even though how much I care
Sometimes I fare
Blind into the night
And I just don't get it right

And I guess I saw my own manic pixie dream
But you kept ripping open the seam
'Cause I expected you to be things to me
That you never promised to be
And sometimes I just get really intense
And I struggle with sense
And I felt so left behind
And like you were so unkind

And when I told you all of this
Through poetry
Like a coward
You apologized
And I realized
I was doing what so many others had done to you before
I'd convinced you that somehow you had a flaw
Some kind of ice heart that couldn't thaw

But life for you has never been a breeze
And I was supposed to be easy
At least that's what I claim
My biggest aim
Is to make you feel safe and warm
But I lost control and was causing you harm

I made you think that you weren't trying your hardest
I guess I'm as manipulative as any artist
And I'm so fucking sorry
Which is why I had to add this story
'Cause in a way
Our magical movie moment
Was just as well for you
But you thought you found a friend
A safe haven
A port
A first and last resort
Who expected nothing of you but that you were trying
But I guess I was lying
Both to myself and to you
But I don't want this to undo
What we try to do
Every day

Which is that every day
We try to see the best
In each other
And everyone else
Even those who might not deserve it
And I'm happy to call myself your friend
From now on and 'till the end
If you'll have me
'Cause I'm sorry
And I know now what I was doing
And I don't want it to ruin

The fact that you're getting better
If you'll still let me
I'm happy to be your tether

The first time I saw you was on stage

But the first time I really saw you was when you felt safe with me
And I'm not sure if I deserved your vulnerability
I hope you accept my apology

'Cause I love you and always did
I was just being kind of a shit