Forgot How to Forget

They told me to push it
To the back of my head
"Let it go!"
"You're young!"
"Forget!"
"Don't dread!"
"Not yet!"
But I'm afraid
'Cause I think I forgot
How to forget
So I keep drinking
To stop me from sinking
To stop me from drinking
To stop me from feeling and bleeding and crying

'Cause I try to love
And love is trying
And I've been trying
But I can't let go of all the pain in the world
Like how suicide rates and social inequality rates are both on a scary incline
While we're inclined
To do
Absolutely nothing

Or how we let them torture animals
To give us cheaper meat
Just so we can throw more out

Or how they torture children
To give us over-priced iPhones and cheaper clothes
Just so we can throw more out

How do I forget?
I think I forgot

So fuck you
If you go to a café with your girlfriends and hashtag it "Long time, no see"
Fuck, you're still not seeing

And fuck you
If your music taste is just "whatever's on the radio right now"
It's all fucking marketing

And fuck you
For letting yourself be a number
For letting them measure you and track you

And fuck you
If you think I'm just being pretentious and difficult

And fuck me
For being pretentious and difficult

And fuck me
For all of the above

I'm sorry for being so angry
Don't think this doesn't hurt me too

Don't think I'm not lying awake
Wanting to pound my fists through the walls

Don't think I don't wish
I could just drink 'till I drowned in myself

Don't think I don't hate myself for being so angry
I just don't remember how not to be
Why is everyone else not angry all the time?

Did you peek behind the curtain of this puppet show
And decide that you were content?
That this was good enough?
Or did you choose to forget?
I'm getting exhausted
Don't ask me what caused it
There's a line and they crossed it
Take a look and it's thwarted
The future is deceitful
Ignorance is blissful
The world is awful
And I'm forgetful

But let's remain hopeful

Let's remember that change never came from "good enough"
Let's remember that happiness never came from more stuff
Let's get angry
Let's yell louder
Let's sing to the skies
Let's bang every fucking drum
Let's strum every single chord they're afraid to hear
Let's get angry and let change come

And when we're dead and gone
We can rest knowing
That we weren't just here

Let us be the ones who will not be measured
We didn't just accept what they called fact
We decided to act
To react
Let us be the ones who peeked behind the curtain and decided
That this is not okay

Let's get angry
(Let's get angry)
Let's get so fucking angry
(Let's get so fucking angry)
Let's get angry
(Angry, angry, angry)
Let's get so fucking angry
(Let's get so fucking angry)
(Fucking angry)
Or I guess you can just forget
But I'm happy that I forgot how