Nightmares (acoustic)

I'm over you
Not this traumatic situation though
Found out through social media
That you're still dragging me
Through the mud
Sometimes you show up in
My nightmares
And I wake up with nerves and feel scared
I've been trying to put on a face
And be strong in public
In case I run into you
'Cause you might say something to others
I'm going through mixed emotions
I already have past traumas
Now this situation is adding to it
When I get home, I tear up sometimes
Text and video call my friends
I feel mad, sad, and anxious
Sometimes you show up in
My nightmares
And I wake up with nerves and feel scared
Just by seeing you randomly
IMakes my heart beat fast
And sometimes shakes me
And I freeze up
Running into your friends
Causes me to feel anxious and be careful
Sometimes you show up in
My nightmares
And I wake up with nerves and feel scared
Your friends found joy
In trying to embarrass me
And talk bad about me
In a bad way forever
This feels like a drama tv show at this point
Sometimes you show up in
My nightmares
And I wake up with nerves and feel scared
I hope the smear campaign was worth it
Still having flashbacks
I know this makes you feel powerful
And better
These are the effects of what you did
Sometimes it feels like I'm having a panic attack
Running into your friends
Causes me to feel anxious and be careful
Your friends found joy
Sometimes you show up in
My nightmares
And I wake up with nerves and I feel scared
All the traits you're showing
This feels like Halloween almost
Even the smallest thing
Causes me nerves
You traumatized me
Didn't apologize
No guilt no shame
For all your actions
I bet you must love spreading and lying
To make you feel better and powerful
I hope this narrative was worth it
Still having flashbacks
To this day
My fear of trust goes way back
It doesn't like opening up anymore
While I try to make new friends
I'm scared that they heard any stuff before
These are some of the effects of trauma
Recently my eyes would start to get blurry
When I would get stressed
And all the memories and feelings
Will come back sometimes
When it gets tricky
Recently I started getting a headache
'Cause of it
Even my brain knows sometimes
And getting worried
I didn't know until a few minutes
Had on a blindfold
I finally knew what I was scared of
These are some of the effects of trauma
Whoa Whoa
Even ease-dropping makes me feel like
I can't be open whenever
I talk to my friends your friend of friends
Is always there and it's too much each day
Basically saying that just haunt and haunts
From guy to guy