Canary in a Coal Mine

I wish I could learn to be more selfish
Maybe I'd get better for a day
Put all my love into others
Getting nothing back for me
If I could learn to be more like you
Unapologetically into yourself
I'd remember how to smile
Maybe learn to like me too

Each hour is starting to feel like a week
I spend all my days alone
And you barely speak to me
Am I just overthinking?

So here's a toast to the new year
A year void of conversation
You know I can't find the words to speak
Unless I pour some whiskey in my drink
So here's a toast to a night I won't remember
And a night you won't forget
In the morning I'll make my way home
Here's to another year all alone

Just like the empty bottles that line the walls
You were once a way of coping
Only replaced by nights I can't recall
In a basement full of people
That came to hear me sing
But no one wants to hear about how things went south
So I'll act like nothings wrong
And I'll just shut my fucking mouth

Think back to when my sorrows
Stayed in your bedroom sheets
Until that wasn't enough and they started coming
Home with me

So here's a toast to the new year
A year void of conversation
You know I can't find the words to speak
Unless I pour some whiskey in my drink
So here's a toast to a night I won't remember
And a night you won't forget
In the morning I'll make my way home
Here's to another year all alone
All alone