Motivation
I got too many things on my mind
And I'm paralyzed when I analyze
And all my anxiety it likes to emphasize all the smallest lies
Things I'd rather hide(ay)
And now when I'm on my own I'm fucking petrified
Scared to go outside I write with a passion but
Don't take my own advice
I ignore my guide stubborn to the signs(ay)
Want to see I need to see but I just keep 'em closed
I learned you can't be disappointed if you never know
Yeah I hate this feeling lack of energy inside
Barely scraping by like an anchor wrapped around and
Weighing on my mind
Fatigued restless eyes a corpse in disguise(ay)
I've overcome a lot but I still fear the unknown
My demons are my family and depression is my home
Yeah write my mind and it's dark my lyrics
Speak volumes the only time in my life where
I'm not wearing costumes Yeah where I can be me
Still I compare myself like two items on a shelf
And mine is hard to sell hell it prolly never will
Got so much potential and I watch it as it wilts
Hills out the window sill see the sun that
I'll never feel I'm so tired of being tired
Feeling bad about feeling bad
My eyes opening is the worst nightmare
I've had The view in my mirror the worst I ever saw
I have got a new daw still with my old jaw ay
We're gonna need a bigger beat ay
I can't multitask so I leave it to the last possible second
I never learn from the past nor from the present
I think too fast and get lost in my thoughts
I think in mass and my flaws come in lots
Hung to relax but I'm caught in the knot
I won't last my own top taking shots till I drop
I'm no match for myself
Fighting not for a belt
Everyday it's my hell
Can't admit I need help
I look up and I yell
Out the pain but it fell
The same feeling I felt
Twice as bad it now dealt
Final blow I can't tell
Know I never was well
But the pain always held
And relief had to meld
Now addicted I melt
In the trauma I dwell
Eyelids open their cell
Demons hear dinner bell
I need some fucking motivation
Taking a pill just for an hour of procrastination
What a terrible constellation
Out of steam
All I need is just some
Motivation God gimme the motivation
Got none of the calm and patience
Caught outta the captivation
I need some fucking motivation
God gimme the motivation
Got none of the calm and patience
Caught outta the captivation
I need some fucking motivation
Please tell me this goes away
I don't wanna have to fight my feelings
Every time I make real things
Walls and ceilings closing in I needed an outlet
But now I'm putting out less
Still I can't sit down rest
Man I'm feeling pretty pathetic
Expecting the worst like I'm really prophetic
Wanna die I fully admit it
If I'm not the one who get the only credit
Skilled with the quill innately poetic
I been feeling nothing lately apathetic
Goals might be purely theoretic
I'm gonna get to work and change the aesthetic
My rhymes are already magnetic
Alphabet's imbedded in deeply genetic
Expert with it skill isn't simply hypothetic
I need a reminder why I'm doing this
Intuitive root of it
Odds against me I fought
In lieu of it using it proving it wasn't luck
I wasn't put here two feet using skill as a crutch
Whenever the weight was too much
Because everything else turned to dust
Supporting beams started sporting rust
Broken was the thing I learned to trust
Those roots now scars went deeper than cuts
Suicidal I've felt more than once
But safety I haven't felt that much
Heart slowing gave me more of a rush
The colder the touch
The darker the brush
Remember the phantom's back and all my work is vantablack
I'm on the attack cause on the other side of the track
A mind that feels cracked and my motivation
Fled the second I left my bed
It's empty in my head
Feels the opposite instead
Volume peaks my ears bled
What's the problem?
I promise no distraction let me solve 'em
I'll say bye to tangents please just off 'em
God I don't believe in but I called him
Pray before my coffin cut the volume
I'll never ask again just stop 'em
Never anything again just stop 'em
I need some fucking motivation
Taking a pill just for an hour of procrastination
What a terrible constellation
Out of steam
All I need is just some
Motivation God gimme the motivation
Got none of the calm and patience
Caught outta the captivation
I need some fucking motivation
God gimme the motivation
Got none of the calm and patience
Caught outta the captivation
I need some fucking motivation
And I'm paralyzed when I analyze
And all my anxiety it likes to emphasize all the smallest lies
Things I'd rather hide(ay)
And now when I'm on my own I'm fucking petrified
Scared to go outside I write with a passion but
Don't take my own advice
I ignore my guide stubborn to the signs(ay)
Want to see I need to see but I just keep 'em closed
I learned you can't be disappointed if you never know
Yeah I hate this feeling lack of energy inside
Barely scraping by like an anchor wrapped around and
Weighing on my mind
Fatigued restless eyes a corpse in disguise(ay)
I've overcome a lot but I still fear the unknown
My demons are my family and depression is my home
Yeah write my mind and it's dark my lyrics
Speak volumes the only time in my life where
I'm not wearing costumes Yeah where I can be me
Still I compare myself like two items on a shelf
And mine is hard to sell hell it prolly never will
Got so much potential and I watch it as it wilts
Hills out the window sill see the sun that
I'll never feel I'm so tired of being tired
Feeling bad about feeling bad
My eyes opening is the worst nightmare
I've had The view in my mirror the worst I ever saw
I have got a new daw still with my old jaw ay
We're gonna need a bigger beat ay
I can't multitask so I leave it to the last possible second
I never learn from the past nor from the present
I think too fast and get lost in my thoughts
I think in mass and my flaws come in lots
Hung to relax but I'm caught in the knot
I won't last my own top taking shots till I drop
I'm no match for myself
Fighting not for a belt
Everyday it's my hell
Can't admit I need help
I look up and I yell
Out the pain but it fell
The same feeling I felt
Twice as bad it now dealt
Final blow I can't tell
Know I never was well
But the pain always held
And relief had to meld
Now addicted I melt
In the trauma I dwell
Eyelids open their cell
Demons hear dinner bell
I need some fucking motivation
Taking a pill just for an hour of procrastination
What a terrible constellation
Out of steam
All I need is just some
Motivation God gimme the motivation
Got none of the calm and patience
Caught outta the captivation
I need some fucking motivation
God gimme the motivation
Got none of the calm and patience
Caught outta the captivation
I need some fucking motivation
Please tell me this goes away
I don't wanna have to fight my feelings
Every time I make real things
Walls and ceilings closing in I needed an outlet
But now I'm putting out less
Still I can't sit down rest
Man I'm feeling pretty pathetic
Expecting the worst like I'm really prophetic
Wanna die I fully admit it
If I'm not the one who get the only credit
Skilled with the quill innately poetic
I been feeling nothing lately apathetic
Goals might be purely theoretic
I'm gonna get to work and change the aesthetic
My rhymes are already magnetic
Alphabet's imbedded in deeply genetic
Expert with it skill isn't simply hypothetic
I need a reminder why I'm doing this
Intuitive root of it
Odds against me I fought
In lieu of it using it proving it wasn't luck
I wasn't put here two feet using skill as a crutch
Whenever the weight was too much
Because everything else turned to dust
Supporting beams started sporting rust
Broken was the thing I learned to trust
Those roots now scars went deeper than cuts
Suicidal I've felt more than once
But safety I haven't felt that much
Heart slowing gave me more of a rush
The colder the touch
The darker the brush
Remember the phantom's back and all my work is vantablack
I'm on the attack cause on the other side of the track
A mind that feels cracked and my motivation
Fled the second I left my bed
It's empty in my head
Feels the opposite instead
Volume peaks my ears bled
What's the problem?
I promise no distraction let me solve 'em
I'll say bye to tangents please just off 'em
God I don't believe in but I called him
Pray before my coffin cut the volume
I'll never ask again just stop 'em
Never anything again just stop 'em
I need some fucking motivation
Taking a pill just for an hour of procrastination
What a terrible constellation
Out of steam
All I need is just some
Motivation God gimme the motivation
Got none of the calm and patience
Caught outta the captivation
I need some fucking motivation
God gimme the motivation
Got none of the calm and patience
Caught outta the captivation
I need some fucking motivation
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Writer(s): Miles Jordan
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