05.17.00

Dear Diary
I saw that girl again
She was walking down the street with her three best friends
She doesn't seem to notice me
Though I've grown a couple inches
She likes the bad boys
Those who raise their middle fingers
Curse at the teacher and run around the room
I can't act like that
Don't know what to do
I wear my new jacket
It's a flight like the others
Black on the outside
Carrot on the in
My kicks ain't new and she rock the new Js
I wish that one day
She would look me way
We play truth or dare
I be hoping we connect
Carry gum in case we kiss
Always conscious of my breath
Just something that I can't put my hands on
I think I love her
Love is what I stand on
My turn at spin the bottle and I give it a go
It lands on her
Oh no she turns up her nose
They like kiss him and get it over quick
Give her a small grin
She said I'm gonna be sick
Leans in closes her eyes
Hands on her thighs
Puckers up her lips
Give mine a lick
Can't be dry
Gives me a peck
To my surprise she starts to laugh and giggle
Says it wasn't that bad
Picks up pad starts to scribble
Passes me a note folded tight with a heart
I opened it
It read meet me after dark
I give a small nod
But my insides is racing
Getting really nervous
Start perspirating
I rush home take a bath and a shower
Keep checking that clock yo hour after hour
It hits seven
Lights out
Oh yea its game time
I get dressed in my schoolboy fresh
Bucket hat and a sweater vest
Grab my keys and I head to the door
But then in walks my mama
Oh Lord
Yo she lookin at me crazy like boi where you going
She like yo exactly that's what I thought
Look at the time
It's dark you ain't leaving
In fact it's prayer time
Boi get on your knees
I go begrudgingly
Fall upon my dungarees
Mind can't focus I'm thinking so seductively
What will she think if I don't show up
They'll be like yo we told you Cowan's a chump
Next day at school she just grabs my hand
I start to apologize
She says I understand
Cuz I couldn't leave either my dad was trippin
Was inclined to believe her
Dear Diary she said she liked me cuz I was different
My breath was sweet
It's the watermelon

We got closer all throughout the years
Young dumb and in love those the best years
We got closer throughout the years
Young dumb and in love those the best years

Can't get you off my mind
Can't get you off my mind
Can't get you off my mind
Can't get you off my mind
Can't get you off my mind
Can't get you off my mind