If I Lose

Look
I'm doing fine and everything been looking good
Still clutch that iron although I moved far from the hood
Everything I made I'd give it all away that's if I could
Know this shit won't change so I'm still hiding this pain shid as I should
And I'm so misunderstood

Plus they leave me out
Topic of the city used to be shit that I'd dream about
But I ain't know this shit come with it
Too much envy too much cheese to count
Bookoo niggas wanna kill me
Sending shots all thru my people house
I feel my feelings go to feeling I can't lie I go to easing off
I done caught too many flights never thought I'll see a drought
Til jail came then that hail came I'm changing seasons now
Around my own door I been sweeping round
Do shit out my reach for some people who drag they deeds around
I take two tabs fore I go to sleep hoping that shit keep me down
You do that bad when you try to leach and drag your feet around
Screaming "Fuck em let 'em leave"
Cause I'm Mrs.Shelia child
I need a while
To take this in feel like I'm breathing loud
I never thought me singing loud would help me feed a child
But I did it word to my crowd
I hear a "bow" just know I'm leaving proud
And I could rest assure I'll sleep good to the sweetest sound
Say Papa barely able
Wish I could save him but Jesus how
Aunty texted me check on him
Lost breath on it I can't feed the thought
Know Granny still gone pray but I'm okay
Shit I barely leave the house
Unless it's court or plays I ain't even reaching out

You know a star gone sit high and shine bright as the moon
In other words we all equal
I ain't looking down on people once I walk in the room
Even though my problems keep getting bigger
I done took off on these niggas
I thank God I improved
I went hard from start to finish
Once I make it to the ending
Just know I tried if I lose

Watched my uncle pull them bricks out the duffle I ain't even notice
I was young but I was focused on that bankroll he was holding
I was 10 and knew right then that this lifestyle was what I wanted
I just saw it ain't trynna quote it like he the one came and showed me
I got older then I learned how to write out all my emotions
Never steered way from my motive this mission just got atrocious
Once you cross me know shit dead I won't charge it up or reload it
I got away from my old self bitch I'm remolded
That shit big as you promote it
Know that pool just as water as that ocean

You know a star gone sit high and shine bright as the moon
In other words we all equal
I ain't looking down on people once I walk in the room
Even though my problems keep getting bigger
I done took off on these niggas
I thank God I improved
I went hard from start to finish
Once I make it to the ending
Just know I tried if I lose



Credits
Writer(s): Cedric Stith
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