Gaslitation!

Tryna talk that shit on the phone
She done lied again I gotta leave her alone
Still wondering if a nigga is worthy
It feels like guiltiness was instilled within me
Never fully aligned, I put my wants behind yours
You put your needs behind mine

Bitch you know that I don't trust you, yea
Avoiding that relapse
Dealing with her had my synapses slow down
Researched them meanings now a nigga knows
Still tryna cope with this- fuck
Niggas fucked and dipped her they dipped on her with no care no aftercare
She deserved better now she got that trauma reflex
Intimacy and sex 101 I tried to teach it
That shit brung overexertion
All that hurt you're ignoring in your soul
You struggled to open them doors
She doesn't know what I want her to say
Sanity starting to leave my mind astray
Why do I always gotta bring up the past
Obsessed with that feeling of love and attachment
Processing this shit gave me cognitive dissonance
Complacency I was blinded by fineness
Exploited my flaws your flaws I realized this
Gassed out, lights on, dumbahh nigga
I always have to be right
Niggas feeling guilty for doing the right thing
Subconsciously knowing I can't fix this
The love bombing I notice the fucking blame shift
I feel her drifting our love don't feel the same
Supposed to be calm but my brain is enflaming itself
Twisted convos got me questioning myself
You know how much I love you
I would never hurt you on purpose
I made it far enough to see your exposure
Them emotions is gone now my reservoirs empty
All this negativity in yo repertoire
You can't reason with an egocentric bitch
Niggas acted oblivious started storing some info
Emotional decompression helping the healing process
This shit ain't giving what you said that it would
Stupid nigga really should've known better
Liar, fuck you say yes for
Manipulator but a people pleaser
Using your tactics to fight back
Back to back toxic decisions
Toxic companion mixed with codependency
Broken promises and fallacies
Tryna paint me as a psycho
Tryna leave a handprint on my psyche
Painted hands kids names all over the canvas
Dam, yea

I seen the niggas you like, bitch I was never yo type
Used to wipe my nut up off you
How the fuck I know you more than you know yourself
Hard to leave you I seen myself in you
She tryna tell me to delete the folder
Them videos, pictures, conversations and these audios
I'm not you girly Im taking this shit slow
Used to slowly beat the pussy you wanted more
Pretended to be sweet I thought I was sure of your changes
Should've known better had multiple stages
Subconsciously knowing I can't fix this
The love bombing I notice the fucking blame-
Obsessed with that feeling of love and attachment
Processing this shit gave me cognitive dissonance
Complacency I was blinded by fineness

Gaslitation, gaslitation, gaslitation

Tryna talk that shit on the phone
She done lied again I gotta leave her alone
Still wondering if a nigga is worthy
It feels like guiltiness was instilled within me



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Writer(s): Jerrell Reed
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