F**k (Me, Myself, And I)

Tryna build with someone that's not carrying bricks with me
Sought for solutions instead I made madness
Sadness, fondness, soulmate
Second guessing I can barely get rest
All the sudden it feels like Gods tryna test me
Can't expect honesty when they lie to themselves

Having one of them nights girl I wish you were here
How'd we get so deep so fast
I was hoping that it would last
Should I stop hoping for us
Could've figured this shit out together but nope
Lights off, two o'clock inna morning I cope
Tired of having these dreams bout her
But I wouldn't mind if they were a lil longer lowkey
Psychedelics got that pressure right outta me, fuck
This growth been hella delightful
Thank God for my pull out, pulled out, shoutsout
Doubting us saved me from another downfall
Losing some space all these memories spread
Shawdy's a melody in my-

Consuming this idea of finding true love
Tryna find it when I ain't find myself yet
This distraught, predestined beset with a bitch
Thought this was medicine, it's making me sick
Tryna build with someone that's not carrying bricks with me
Sought for solutions, instead I made madness
Sadness, fondness, soulmate
Second guessing I can barely get rest
All the sudden it feels like Gods tryna test me
Can't expect honesty when they lie to themselves
Put that key to my happiness in somebody's pocket
A soft girl in public, she was my bitch in private
Getting rid of these thoughts, bed ridden for weeks
Not really geeking bout the shit that I did
Unappreciated but I still showed love
Now niggas know to put themselves above
Yea, uh

Fuck, they'll break yo heart while you're tryna fix theirs
You think you're doing right well you're surely mistaken
Misguided direction will have you up shaking
My favorite person turned into a life lesson, fuck
Self critical cause it's all that I know
Too busy self sabotaging and dodging
You used to blow me in multiple ways
Her final say was an hour of rage
She been keeping the shit from within all along
I'm getting mine out by making these songs
Feeling this grief deep down in my body
I can't save everybody, fuck
Toxic empathy had a niggas nervous system fluctuating
Anxiousness got me succumbing to needing affection
Unhealthy addiction, fuck
How you want sum real but you running from it
Undeserving of the shit you went through
But I was deserving of your treatment
I felt the moments you wanted to die without saying a word
A nigga shouldn't have endeavored, yea

Having one of them nights girl I wish you were here
How'd we get so deep so fast
I was hoping that it would last
Should I stop hoping for us
Could've figured this shit out together but nope
Lights off, two o'clock inna morning I cope
Tired of having these dreams bout her
But I wouldn't mind if they were a lil longer lowkey
Psychedelics got that pressure right outta me, fuck
This growth been hella delightful
Thank God for my pull out, pulled out, shoutsout
Doubting us saved me from another downfall
Losing some space all these memories spread
Shawdy's a melody in my-