Desert Tears

You've placed me in places
I could have never imagined
The moments of grief and sadness
Of chaos and madness
Disaster and dissatisfaction
Pardon my over reaction

But there's been moments
Where I felt like giving up
Where misery was my cup
And All I had were these salt tears

God, are you still here
Or have my fears finally come to pass
They told me that pain is temporary
But this emptiness has lasted

And I once sat silently passive
But now I'm held captive
By the need to call this for what it really is

God, where are You
And what are You saying
Cactuses my only friends
And I'm not playing

You get to close and they start stabbing
These desert wolves keep playing savage

God, where are You
Why can't I feel You
Where's the breakthrough

Remember, You made me
I didn't make You
So I am Your responsibility

And lately it feels like You've
limited my mobility
And You've kept me in this dry valley
Where only bones keep me company
So, what is it You're showing me

And while I didn't make You
I continually try to shape You
Into the God I desire You to be
The God of the breakthrough

And I hear You whisper, Joe
You don't need a breakthrough
I need to break you

Well, Lord be subtle
Before You break me like
Bread You broke before
They sold You for silver

See, I think that's the part of communion
That we miss
We talk about the broken body that You endured
As if we don't have to sacrifice anymore
But maybe You broke that bread with Your own hands
As a symbol that one day You'll break us
with Yours

Because whoever wants to gain his life
Will lose it
And lately I feel like I'm losing while
Everyone else is winning
And I guess that's the point
Because I'm just now beginning

To realize that to live is Christ
And to die is gain
So connected to this barren plain
Are the tears hidden behind these frames

And maybe the only thing
That can turn this dust
Into moldable mud
Are these tears as they flood

So as You poured out Your blood
I'll pour out these salt tears
And as I peer through squinted eyes
Flooded by the residue of water left behind

I'll thank You Jesus that because You now live
I too, am called to die
But resurrection will have the final cry
These desert bones will come to life

Bursting forth at the perfect time
Transforming these tears
into new wine

Break me like the bread You broke
Before they sold You for silver

If You don't break me
Will I sell You out for silver

Lord, break me like the bread You broke
Before they sold You for silver

If You don't break me
Will I sell You out for silver