Man on Man

You can catch me
If I need it again
You say "boy I don't bite
Only coyotes do that"
All men ever do
Is traumatize me
So I hide inside my mind
And ignore my dirty laundry

Got some five dollar bills
In the waist of my jeans
Walk inside the city
That's watching over me
My mouth tastes like lube
And I see you in my dreams
But in every single one of them
You cum on me and leave

And I
Should have told you sooner
Wanna make this intimate
You can take me take me back
And lock us up in bed
Should have made it clearer
What I want from all of this
You distract me in the moment
Same question comes again

You can say you don't believe
In the place that I go
But the comfort of this citys
Less alive than I know
You're the same as the last
It's the same as before
When it's all said and done
Rush me out of the door

I wish I could remember
Last time this was planned
Shower off the sweat
Man on man
And in those moments
Adrenaline has me going
I can breathe alright
Even though my trusts been broken
Now

Sex dreams
When I dream, of you instead
Kiss it before you miss it
You're the best thing I had
But, in a few months
I'll forget your name and bed
And step back out
Into glowing lights so red

Now, boy
I'm gonna tell a secret
But I told the city before
And they're here hearing it
I could tell you
I could tell you all of it
But the question ain't believing
If you ignore it in the end

Nobody ever believes
A single thing I've said
So I try to disappear
Any chance I get
And now I just believe
In my hallucinations
Dogs follow me home
And I want to forget

I forgot to prepare
I forgot my way back
I don't wanna do this
And I always lose track of
How many people
Have touched my skin
It's all a black blur
Don't wanna look at it

So destroy me inside
You can gaslight me
It's all I've ever known
But I know I need
Scrub out my mind
Like a coffee stain
And I watch you from the window
You're a stranger again

I wish I could remember
Last time this was planned
Shower off the sweat
Man on man
And in those moments
Adrenaline has me going
I can breathe alright
Even though my trusts been broken now

Sex dreams
When I dream, of you instead
Kiss it before you miss it
You're the best thing I had
But, in a few months
I'll forget your name and bed
And step back out
Into glowing lights so red

Does it feel good
Spit in my mouth
I feel you on my body
Feel you on my south
I'm afraid of affection
But I still want love
And no matter what I do
I can never come down

Won't text pictures
Won't make a mistake again
I know I always do
As if an accident
Slip inside my mind
Where my trauma's at
You say I'm unstable
I'll agree with that, cause

I wish I could remember
Last time this was planned
Shower off the sweat
Man on man
And in those moments
Adrenaline has me going
I can breathe alright
Even though my trusts been broken now

Sex dreams
When I dream, of you instead
Kiss it before you miss it
You're the best thing I had
But, in a few months
I'll forget your name and bed
And step back out
Into glowing lights so red