Terrified (Interlude I)

In October of 2017
I was attacked by a coyote while I slept
But this coyote was much more than an animal
I've seen so many times
In the sex hungry city I inhabit

I've lived here my whole life
And it never used to feel this way
Now the city feels more sinister
And the men look so eager
And I've lost the ability to recognize faces

Something inside of them wants to harm me
I'm hyper-aware of it
It's the same look he had that night
The night the moon was full
It brought something much more primal
And blood-hungry out of him

Pinned to the bed, he took me apart
Hands deep inside me to reorganize my organs
And for a moment I saw my own face before me
Contorted in a manner so unsettling, I will never forget it

I cross the streets with keys in my fists
The anticipation of another attack plagues me
It feels like he's watching from just out of view
Aware of my presence, tracking me like prey

And so I did anything I could to escape
Filling my time with all the temptations Club London could offer me
Sex, drugs, drag, and romance. Perfect escapism
I need it to feel in control again

Late at Club London, among party goers clad in glitter
I am petrified
At the spectre of a coyote
Crawling across the dancefloor towards me
No one but I can see this strange occurrence
For I am paranoid
I am terrified
I am Traumatized
And I must
Fear all men