Fear All Men

In the middle of the night
He calls me up again
Mentions me up again
It all goes to my head

I watch out for a sign
That I'm in danger
But I can't ever find it
But it's no stranger

Feel it with a touch
I feel it with a stare
I feel it with a whisper
Inside my mind it's there

And all the world around me
Isn't real or is it so
I can't believe I'm asking
But I've got to know

I'm not dead
But I'm not fine
I don't know
Who I am inside

When things come up
They don't come down
Behind me
I can hear a hound

I get a knife
I get a blade
So sharpened
In the nicest way

To feel something
Besides all this
My mind is just
Reduced to shit

Feelings bad
And feelings fine
Traumatic thoughts
Will fill my mind

I walk around
To clear my head
But my thoughts
Follow to bed

In the night
It gets much worse
Hallucinating
Dogs comes first

Then the voice
Then demands
They want me to
Take up my plan

I fear all men
They're after me
They follow me
Through the city

I fear all men
Including him
And every one
I have slept with

I fear all men
They'll kill me too
Power sits
Beneath their shoe

I don't have hope
I don't have time
Before I go
I won't say bye

Where am I
My mind will race
Forgot my clothes
At his place

If you touch me
I will flashback
To all the reasons
that I can't

Keep a man
For more than six
Months or even
Less than this

There's nothing else
Left in hell
I wish I could be
Someone else

Feelings bad
And feelings fine
Traumatic thoughts
Just fill my mind

I walk around
To clear my head
But still my thoughts
Follow to bed

And in the night
It gets much worse
Hallucinating
Dogs comes first

Then the voices
Then demands
They want me to
Take up my plan

I fear all men
They're after me
They follow me
Through the city

I fear all men
Including him
And every one
I have slept with

I fear all men
They'll kill me too
Power sits
Beneath their shoe

I don't have hope
I don't have time
Before I go
I won't say bye

My world is only danger
But that's just my mind
I can't tell truth from fiction
It haunts me all the time
I look into a mirror
To ask me, who am I
Lick my lips of semen
And I'll kill myself tonight

Pleased to know you're sorry
But I don't need you to
So don't coddle me
It's never up to you
The men I met by day
Aren't the same ones after dark
Because something about a bedroom
Makes me fall apart

Do you want me

I know you don't
Because I'm way too fucked up
Because I'm way too sick
And if I get pushed too far
I might fall down again
One of these days I won't wake up
I will be free by then

I fear all men
I fear all men
I fear all men
I fear all men