Fragile

Alright this is the last one you get

I've spent all of my life not doing anything right
I've spent all of my days questioning my ways
Why does god give me this pain
Everybody smiles but I can't do the same
I think about how far that I came
Only to realize absolutely nothing has changed
I'm still the useless one nobody likes
I don't talk about killing myself cause I just might
There's something that's been keeping me up at night when I'm resting my head
And that's that half of us with depression is to afraid to talk about it while the other half is Dead
You say life is a movie but to us it's barely a clip
We think about the society we don't fit in and look at the wrist that were slittin'
And wonder why the pain is so addictin'
We completely forget the people we care about
Because to them we don't even exist but that's are self doubt
I've felt this way so many times I can't count
I'll never run out of sorrows there's an infinite amount
I bet you think I fake depression just for the clout
Somewhere down the road I took the wrong route
Cause I shout my depression that I don't even know what's about
My head is in the clouds I can't think straight
If you feel the same I do, do we share the same fate
That one day our demons show us to the gate
Then we decide we wanna go back but it's already too late
No matter where I go these thoughts keep finding me
To most people I'm a freak to society
I don't even fit in my friend group don't ask me why I have anxiety
I don't have feelings like confidence and such
Depression just blinds me to much
I'm something that not even my skin wants to touch

I'm fragile one touch I might break
I don't understand why you talk to me for my sake
Just don't claim that my life's a piece of cake
If you saw my demons you'd be afraid
look at all the songs i've made
I never said I was happy who can relate

There's a devil on my shoulder but you never see a god
Every time I smile I'm a fraud
I'm like the kid in the talent show nobody applaud
I can't save myself so I try to save you
Everyone belongs here no matter what you've been through
And if your in pain I pray that it's over soon
Whether if it's love or you hate what you are
You can't let those demons tare you apart
Find and repair the pieces of your heart
As far as liking yourself I'm still trying to find the start
I don't know if there's a reason or what
But mentally I've been in a rut
With an empty feeling in my gut
I'm caged into depression I wanna be free
Anxiety tells me what I need to be
I know people who hurt themselves and that really gets to me
Maybe I'm not as good of a friend as I thought I was
Maybe they make me feel like that just because
They know I need help and there to busy focusing on that than there self
That's something I could never understand
I try to care about others but I know I'm a selfish man

I'm fragile one touch I might break
I don't understand why you talk to me for my sake
Just don't claim that my life's a piece of cake
If you saw my demons you'd be afraid
look at all the songs i've made
I never said I was happy who can relate

Stop crying and put up a fake face
Fake everything until who you are is erased
If you fail the gun is in the same place
It was Last time you failed and wanted to start a case
I'm buying all these glocks cause I'm afraid to die
The crying never stops and now you know why