Fatherless Figure

Perhaps 'I was cursed for the curse to inflict
The pain after I was traumatized by abandonment
I was looking for a father for support but he dipped
His only encouragement to me was learning how to quit ish
Love he tried to give me was poison and made me sick
Sicker than a lunatic that burns his thoughts until they're crisp
I grew up unhinged, unfixed with nothing to lose
With a mentality that broke rules, death is what I came close to
From the stress and dealing with the fools around me
That almost made me drop out of school
Nobody knew the agony that I had to go through 'mentally
The thought of stupidity from failing 'academically
Like I was forced to deplore what was best
For my future by scoring very poorly on a test
The hate that I had for my father grew bigger
Fatherless figure

Father, father
Left my side when I was born
He abandoned me
All by my lonesome

No father in my life
My problems grew bigger, bigger
Fatherless figure

Not having a father straight up tore me apart
Oh, how the pain was like an sharp needle jabbing through my red heart
It turned black and now human love annoys me
The absence of an father in my life destroyed me, ugh
Creating thoughts for me to feel like an failure
With an trailer playing skits of my disruptive behavior 'through misery
My suffering is a lasting damage
Abandonment issues made it seem impossible for me to manage
Society that's brutally unforgiving
Reminiscing on my courage of refusing to end up in prison
I'm cursed on a rope to get soaked in the devil's dreams
Where's my father to help me with my low self esteem?
As seen on my flashbacks inside of a tiny light
Was my lack of an father's love in my broken life
The hate that I had for my father grew bigger
Fatherless figure

Father, father
Left my side when I was born
He abandoned me
All by my lonesome

No father in my life
My problems grew bigger, bigger
Fatherless figure