Dark Clouds (feat. Alex M. Brinkley)

I'm in my feelings now, sitting under dark clouds
It must be love cause my heart refused to crack a smile
My life went south when I met depression
And it's friend named stress that would burn up my blessings
For me to hate the world, as I'm living with a curse
Of excruciating pain that would strike first
Before the feelings arise, so please lord don't cry 'if I die
Cause I want you to smile when I arrive
Cause nothing hurts more in this world than self doubt
From the pressure or people that think it's funny how
I'm so different that I refused to fit myself into the crowd
Or the fact that I like to stay inside instead of going out
My misery is sticky cause it gave me no escape
From my past that would lock my future up in the cage
I'm a paranoid sprout, growing words and doubts
While the rain pours down through the dark clouds, aye

I'm overthinking again
These words inside of my head
Repeating, repeating

I'm overthinking again
These words inside of my head
They never, they never end

Ya, I swear the world is changing
By forming more problems that brings more pain in
Everybody's lives and they wonder why
It's more suicides happening in a blink of an eye
I'm known to disappear, anytime I'm in the crowd
Cause my anxiety would suck me back in the house
Without a soul around that I could talk to
I've been a loner but I grew up 'getting used to it
But it's days like this when the loneliness hurts
With a thought of feeling dead like I'm in the dirt
I wonder who would even care when I'm gone for good?
Just play this song for the ones who were misunderstood
Until they understand why I had to take this rout
Cause even when I was lost, no-one could figure me out
Feel my words, as they hatch out healing sprouts
With soothing rain that would pour through the dark clouds, J

I'm overthinking again
These words inside of my head
Repeating, repeating

I'm overthinking again
These words inside of my head
They never, they never end