Flashbacks

The camera crew were my demons in pursuit to photo-shoot
Me rewinding back to the roots when I was young and confused
Deja vu came in effect when I was building more reasons to hate myself
While I was suffering from fighting my demons
I needed help but my trust told me that people were filthy
Before the lies, "I was an innocent man that wasn't guilty", with plans
But I fell short in advance from my expenses
Defensive towards my values to repair myself from consequences
I came inches to ending my life early
Cause nothing could ever soothe me from dealing with evil bullies
Dismissed from the advice to be a man that flips
No one would stand with the kid that never hung in the mix
Abandonment would stand near me after people left me
Seeing how quickly all the ones that I loved could forget me
I lost my mind to find myself and that'll prolly be what I'll never have back
Cause I'm in the past that is dangerous for me to see the

Flashbacks
Flashbacks
All I see are flashbacks
Same picture playing back
Where you at lord?, can you save me?
Cause these flashbacks got me feeling crazy, crazy

These flashbacks are playing with me
I'm feeling crazy
I'm feeling crazy

My personality was the needle on the record to play back
My days as an adolescent fiend that was a crazed cat
So strange that people couldn't stand me or my presence
Well known as an peasant that was suicidal since the age of seven
I used to crack under pressure to who was hating
Exploding in mistakes and my brutal hallucinations
While facing all my fears and ish
Dealing with my low self esteem from my childhood, traumatic experiences
As I grew, I was becoming more bitter
Lashing out on the people without thinking, "If I should reconsider?"
But was born a sinner to be far from blessed
I saw a star playing back from when it died on the VCR In my head
Dear lord, "I'm suffering from the trauma and stress"
From what I've went thru in my past, causing me to neglect
Anyone that I felt was breathing down my neck and pushing me closer
To their plotting schemes 'before they damaged my heart into a coma
Let's roll the tape back to when I first met bipolar
And how it forced me to isolate from everyone "to be a loner"
I still feel alone, ugh, in these present times that are wack
My brain is still rewinding back my life, real rap cause I see

Flashbacks
Flashbacks
All I see are flashbacks
Same picture playing back
Where you at lord?, can you save me?
Cause these flashbacks got me feeling crazy, crazy

These flashbacks are playing with me
I'm feeling crazy
I'm feeling crazy

I sync a wish into my soul and hoping that it comes true
To see a future that is far from my flashbacks with a view
Of finding screws to fix my conscience, to dream of things to conquer
Without feeling mood swings transform me into a monster
I need a doctor cause I'm feeling crazy
More crazy than I've ever been from mental illness that raised me
Can't think of when I had a good time without energy
That boosts me, then drains me until I forget the strength that's in me
My mind is gone and now I'm feeling empty
From these flashbacks that are taking selfies of me and my misery
Blind from the flash, as I see my life flash before me
By the face of the devil behind a ski mask
I see black pictures of me "fading from this life of sin"
Cutting out my thoughts with a knife, then I ink it on a pad with a pen
"Here we go again" with life dragging me back
To what I tried to surpass, that's why I'm forever cursed cause all I see are flashbacks

Flashbacks
All I see are flashbacks
Same picture playing back
Where you at lord?, can you save me?
Cause these flashbacks got me feeling crazy, crazy

These flashbacks are playing with me
I'm feeling crazy
I'm feeling crazy