I Won't Go Back I Swear!

Feeling impulsed to return to my home
I wanna talk it out, just me and you alone
I lied to myself saying shit'll work out
Self reporting, I sat in silence dumbstruck
Dumbfounded, hatred in how you sounded
I kept asking myself wondering what I did wrong
I won't go back I swear nigga, uh
Aggressively pushing for you to grow up
Pressing issues that weren't mine nigga fuck up
Why can't a nigga move on
Why couldn't a nigga acknowledge the cons
High off of hopeless romanticism, songs playing
Had a psilocybin induced crying session
That playlist playing my brain starts tripping
The bars that had meant the most had some more emphasis

Suffocation from withholding their name
Still feel it here and there, I'm engulfed by a flame
Fighting, longing, dealing with inner strife
Tell me why the fuck did you come into my life
Balling in tears bitch I ain't mean to hurt you
I hate explaining what I had meant to do
This shit complicated but I'm still indulged in it
Fuck are these compulsions, Im sick of this shit
Tryna be the person you said you never had
Dealt with narcissism from your mom, my dad
Plans made, dates paid, love thrown
Still not fully sure if the full you was shown
Regretting the choices you had made with me
But have you felt remorseful, are you truly sorry
Nigga you're good enough
Them feelings sitting in there and that shit feeling tough
Our divinity will never dissipate
Souls split, therefore, we'll never escape
Time after time I became overzealous
Hurting anothers morale in the process
I don't miss who you are, but I do miss our buzz
I used to say sorry for the nigga I was
But I gotta thank you for the pain that you've given me, yea

Laughing in front of my face
Gave me blank expressions there were multiple days
Tell me again you don't know what to say
Clearly it turns you on playing with me
There was disorders within our disorder
Damaging me led you to having power
Put myself through turmoil I really don't know how
I wanna run from you now, yea
Exhilaration when you criticize
Various signs that I seen and analyzed
I won't go back I swear nigga, hmm

Aggressively pushing for you to grow up
Pressing issues that weren't mine nigga fuck up
Why can't a nigga move on
Why couldn't a nigga acknowledge the cons
Feeling impulsed to return to my home
I wanna talk it out, just me and you alone
I lied to myself saying shit'll work out
Self reporting, I sat in silence dumbstruck
Dumbfounded, hatred in how you sounded
I kept asking myself wondering what I did wrong
I won't go back I swear nigga, yea



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Writer(s): Jerrell Reed
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