Dead End

Everything turns dark on my arrival
What is life? I feel like, I'm living in denial
4:40 in the morning I'm planning my revival
But how can I do it when I'm always suicidal

Past is still there, mistakes are still clear
It feels so real, living in guilt and fear
Never escaped this hole like I'm built in here
Voices made it sure, my cuts are still severe

Jump in my mind, then see what I see
See what I seek, then see what I breathe
See what I did, then feel what I mean
Feel what I feel then think why I bleed

You think my life is so easy, as if I made it
I'm a product of shady, I'm meant to be crazy
Destruction baby and I'm ready to say it
Mentally unsteady, and maybe I'll do it

Killing some ladies, then go to bathing
Getting my body clean, after beheading
Fulfilling my dreams, please don't be hating
A graveyard in my head and no one escaping

Kill me - I kill you, rule I made it so
Burn your family tree, each and every node
But I am just hurting me I should let it go
'Cause death feels closer after new episodes

Let me explain to you why you can't kill me
You put me through hell and I'm still me
I used to think we were two, I haven't been me
But now multiple mes are living in me

You can't do shit, I'll keep coming back
Wrap after wrap, I'll keep killing tracks
Demon who is cracked, villain who is back

Always there for me, what? You don't want me?
"Aah please go away, why do you haunt me?"
You can't stand up for you, I am not taunting
If I wasn't there, you still wouldn't be walking

Hurting your loved ones? I do it for fun
Forget what they feel, shoot them with guns
This is your body I can hurt anyone
After ruining your life that's when I'm done

Then they will blame you, that's when I win
Teaching you lessons, that's why I'm in
You deserve to be alone, not a single thing
So that's everything, how you pay for your sins

So you don't ever want me to be seen?
Do you even know how much pain there is in
I've been carrying it, so don't say anything
'Cause I was the one who had made you the king