Last Goodbye (feat. Nate)

Last goodbye
What we feel inside is not guaranteed to make us any better, but to make us feel worse
This song is dedicated to it

I'm walking down this road, trying to find my home
Lost myself long ago and now I'm so far gone

Darkness clouds my mind, tries to take my life
Can't confide in no one cause I feel so far gone

This life is complicated
Explaining pain and how it causes so much devastation
At any brain 'untrained to prepare for it's attacks
And leave 'em stuck in a vain without a chance of fighting back
The strength of starting over expired and now the weak
Is fresh to strike with a plan to make another body deceased
From suicide that peeks 'before it stalks at it's prey
It makes a person that's living "not want to stay or pray"
Cause faith went out the window soon as demons sold
My soul to freeze up my body and make my heart cold
In my brain were angry characters that played on a set
The scene was not to make me happy, but to make me depressed
So much delusion opinions when it comes to having an illness
Cause people never want to listen or understand
I'm sick of all the hatred behind it 'through fake support and the lies
I'm feeling suicidal deep inside and ready for my last goodbye

I'm walking down this road, trying to find my home
Lost myself long ago and now I'm so far gone

Darkness clouds my mind, tries to take my life
Can't confide in no one cause I feel so far gone

I need some help but my songs
Were telling everyone to stay away and carry on
Was I wrong not to notice it? and was it too late?
Cause I feel the consequences picking on my lonely state
Paranoia building up to constantly annoy me with nerves
The only way for me to keep it's pressure down was with words
Through complications of explaining what refuses to leave
Just like my past behind me that would use my future to lead
Down to the darkness where my life got dark and I couldn't see
It almost took my existence away from me
No one to bare witness to satan when he makes commitments to murders
And gets away with it, spreading his evil even further from hell
Anger got me twisted in it's blood that's addicting
I love it's soul but these lyrics are told for death to come visit
Cause since my birth, it hated me and wish I never existed
I wish I never did as well, as I prepare for my last goodbye

I'm walking down this road, trying to find my home
Lost myself long ago and now I'm so far gone

Darkness clouds my mind, tries to take my life
Can't confide in no one cause I feel so far gone

I lost myself in this life
With no directions to escape from what was blocking the light
From shining on my reflection, am I a curse to my illness?
Is it a sign for the holy sun to set on my image
Until I'm finished and buried from all this sin of stressing?
With no forgiveness cause eternal wants to teach us a lesson
Cause while I'm living with this pain, It's hard to keep it together
I'm like the board under the devil's evil game of the checkers
I want to kill him but I'm fading to a million of pieces
He's up 'ahead of me about to make his goal an achievement
Soon as he kills me with his weapon that is suicide
Is that the answer to put an end to what I feel inside?
Cause what's the point of living 'if this doesn't feel like life?
Cause life these days includes a price that's forced to roll the dice
So answer me when I ask that question, "Is it time to die?"
If so, then let's enjoy this ride cause I'm ready for my last goodbye

I'm walking down this road, trying to find my home
Lost myself long ago and now I'm so far gone

Darkness clouds my mind, tries to take my life
Can't confide in no one cause I feel so far gone
Cause I feel so far gone